If you ever have old diaries or journals, its pretty amusing to read some stuff written there ages ago, say a few years, or even a few months back. ‘Tis true!
Well, it kind of happened to me today. I was flipping through my old journal on a whim, and once again I was amazed at the sheer detail at which I used to write- memories that I had long forgotten (well I shouldn’t call it memories then, should I? Lol.) came rushing back, old quarrels, escapades, descriptions of food!!! and answered prayers.
Anyway.
I came across this particular entry that I always had meant to blog about, but never got to.
It was a beautiful Saturday morning I remember, back two years ago in 2007, and I was walking/jogging around my housing area. As I was walking/jogging (can't remember which)- I'll like to think it was jogging though=) I passed an old couple walking together (actually later it dawned on me that the lady looked eerily, in fact I became pretty sure she was my ex-headmistress). For some reason, it struck me at that moment, just for a nano-second, a pang of---loneliness.
There were two. And there was one.
But in the next nano-second, as briefly as this random thought came, something flashed across my mind really fast- "you'll never walk alone." (THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE FACT I"M A LIVERPOOL FAN!!!) Anyway. It was a very comforting thought, when I least expected it. In such a brief moment of a few strides, even before my mind started formulating questions, I felt my Heavenly Father whispering softly, that no, “You will not ever ever walk alone. Though you think you are alone many times, you're not. 'Cause I will always be beside you when you need me, though you choose not care, or listen, I remain faithful, even when you are faithless. You may not be able to see me, but I am and will be, there."
28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
- Isaiah 40:28-31-
And its true. When I remember His faithfulness, and simple joy I had back then- the point at which I was seemingly cumbered by schoolwork, worries for studies after SPM, whether I will ever get a chance to study overseas and all that, I know, that many times now I’m an ungrateful beast. And there’s nothing else for me to do but to remember the promise He gave that day, and not give up.
